Love Of My Life

[Gianni Truvianni]

An article about how I; Gianni Truvianni have met the love of my life at the age of 42 and how it perhaps has not changed me, for I do not believe that people do but has definitely brought to the surface aspects of me I was not even aware I possessed.

I had always considered it slightly strange or at least till I met the one whom I refer to as “silly girl” that some would want to be with a certain somebody to the point of feeling that if romantic union with that person was not possible theirs would be to have one with nobody. I even took to the ways of interpreting such notions as naïve if not more leading toward what be daft yet just as my years went in to what could be considered “middle age” I encountered she who brought out those feelings in me which are those I had always to a large extent even mocked in others. The sensation of needing to be with only a certain somebody; for another regardless of who simply would not be acceptable was alien to me, as my being had never had introduced on itself this concept which is much prevalent in me since I met this lady.

Much had I heard not only of this in theory but also the physical reactions to accompany that included sleepless nights or certain occurrences in the stomach that do not allow one to eat as one is so consumed by emotions toward that certain someone. This however much like other concepts the mind does not grasp till experienced such as fear or anger yet not as potent as the one that almost wills us to adore the one who has taken our feelings to the place where we perhaps in our deep conscious needed them to arrive.

Naturally at first I was but a stranger to this when I found myself not wishing to eat, even though I had not done so in all of the day or suddenly abandoning my slumber at hours past the midnight mark with but her sensation on my mind as well as the rest to encompass the person who is I. Sleep had never been a problem to me as I could find it even when fatigue or desire for it was not abundant yet despite my attempts to return my mind to where it might rest I found myself thinking more of the one who has became almost the whole world to me and constantly removing myself from being able to find sleep. For my part it was then; as if being told by my deepest passions what my understanding had already grasped that this was that sensation I had so often heard about but had never experienced yet was doing so with all the force it brings about when invited or not.

As for who this lady to make me feel the way I do or lead me to it; taking all my passion which she has shifted on to herself till there be no need in me nor will there ever be for another is not important that I mention, for she is perfectly aware who she is so I will limit myself to saying that she is much younger then I am. To many it may seem that it be her age which attracts my attention as much as any other feature in this one so special to me to be declared the only one, for the excitement it may provide my age yet though logical this conclusion maybe it be errant. For mine is not based on desire to be with one who is a symbol of a time in my life gone; never to be again but to simply feel the sensation of adoring the one who in all my blessings has chosen me in the privilege of her love yet I may not declare in earnest her being my junior by 23 years has not been a factor which I have considered.

This being the case that if all follow as should; I be the one to depart this earth sooner and not have to attempt to go on but surviving in a world no longer enriched with her presence. Of course, it is also with the equally selfish motive of having more children, to provide my first daughter with a sibling or two that I prefer her age to be as is yet I ask be there wrong in my wishing for such with this lovely lady from a land which I have yet to travel to? My faith tells me there is not; for in her the future is as without there be not but a continuance of the long journey of life which would be but on a treadmill, where one may walk on but do very little in the way of moving truly forward or to those places of real value.